I want to be... Better

    Better at doing the things I enjoy; Better at being fit; Better at being myself
I want to be better, and have the ability to work at home; to be important; to be everything I know I can be.
    Better at making my mark on the world; at expressing myself; at taking chances.
I want to be better at knowing when enough is enough; at knowing I deserve better; at knowing I'm worth it.
    Better at everything really.
I want to be better.

Christmas is coming and I'm still a kid.

   At least at heart. I'm sitting here watching Disney's holiday "FaLaLalidays" Christmas episodes. Currently Jessie is on. I'm not ashamed.

My lovely BF has been spoiling me rotten. So far I've got two Christmas presents early.

One was a new white Furby!

I tried to photograph her but her eyes glow so I have to take a pic when she's sleeping.

Her name is Snow.

I also got a pair of "Punch" L.A.Gear sneakers. And they are BRIGHT, like a bright orange/pink! Pics later:)

The closer it gets to Christmas, the happier I am. I have Christmas eve and Christmas, and New Year's Eve, and New Year's off and I'm pretty darn excited!

Also, I love seeing everyone's face when they see what I got them<3

I don't mind getting presents either haha. 

I just know next year is going to be incredible.

Well, gotta go! A.N.T. Farm is on!

I Voted!

Although I won't say who I voted for, I will say, for the first time ever, I did vote. I'm 20 so this is the first time I've got to vote for our new president and I was ecstatic to be able to make my voice heard.... Except I'm in Florida. I think they are STILL counting our ballots lol. Oh well :) Election is over now, so lets support our new president, Barack Obama! Here's some pics of me with my sticker :) 

My little brother "voted" too! That is, he got a free sticker :p

Here's to the simple freedom of voting. 

My Blog

Will be going through a little make over. When I started this blog my mind was bent on it being a fashion blog. But my life isn't all about fashion and sometimes I just don't feel like talking about dresses. (Shocker I know!) So I'm redoing my blog from the ground up. Give it a few days, since this will be a big renovation. I'm so excited! I can't wait to revamp and redo! Woot Woot!

Moving and the adorableness of cupcakes :)

Happy Sunday blog readers!

         For the past month or so I have been MOVING!!!! :))) To a lovely apartment with my Bf. Mr.J. It's a beautiful fairly big one bedroom apartment with a pool just a few steps away :) And when it is all decorated and pretty I will put up pics. Right now there are boxes everywhere! I never knew I had so much stuff! And clothes are everywhere too lol. But Oh well, all will be sorted with time. 

My outfit is actually from Tuesday, an adorable outfit that I made to be appropriate for work haha. 

Headband:Charming Charlie

Jacket: Forever21 + 

Dress: Domino Dollhouse

Shoes: Rackroom Shoes

This Dress. THIS Dress. Oh this dress... :) When I first saw this dress on Domino Dollhouse's website I fell in love. But alas, at the time, money was tight and I let it go... But NOW IT'S MINE! Thanks to Fatshionxchange, this delectable Cupcake Cutie dress is mine! Sure it's missing the bow, but idc. It is still an amazing fit :) And it has little hand sown sprinkle beads! <3 This matches beautifully with my current addiction to everything quirky yet adorable. 

Makin' it work appropriate! Sorta!

Close-up of my *sprinkles*

Readers I'm back and better than ever with tonnnsss of new clothes :) So get ready!

My life: A Personal post

I'm sorry for such a long break..... Sometimes when you love someone, you have to take a step back and reevaluate your relationship. My Fiance and I did just that recently.

We both are very different. I'm very city chic as I call it (He calls it spoiled lol); he is much more country. Raised differently, with different tastes and preferences, our relationship is full of compromise. He is my best friend no matter what. And because we're young, we've decided not to get married for a few more years. As much as I do believe he will be the guy I marry, living together for a year has shown us how different we really are. So a few years to learn how to compromise more and be the best and strongest couple we can be :)

Adjusting and canceling plans was tough. But it's best in the long run, and I really do believe in the end it will strengthen us.

So now I'm back :D More outfit posts soon and even some more personal posts most likely. I look forward to making my blog and my life better and bigger and just as great as I want it all to be.

So Much has happened....

This week has been crazy, not all good crazy, but not all bad either. So I'm taking a short blogger break to cope and regroup. I'll be back real soon I promise. Sincerely, Me

Wedding : More details on the dress

       Ok I feel like as a blogger I've been holding out... I barely discussed my wedding dress, most likely since I was in shock after I posted my dress post. Give me some slack, I posted a day or so after I bought the dress. So here's some more details about that faithful day, in chronological first person short story form.....

Once upon a Saturday...
           I was ready. I had all of my favorite dresses for Davids Bridal and Alfred Angelo picked out. Yes I realize there are more stores then that for wedding dresses but I absolutely HAD to try on my dress, and as a plus size girl you're limited. I just could not see myself holding a dress to my body and going "Yep that looks good I'll take that" Not for my wedding dress. So those were the only two places I had made appointments at. I woke up, mailed some things off, got ready, grabbed my strapless bra and I was out the door. I called my mom to confirm that she was ready... Only to find out apparently my sister had just woke her up ten minutes ago. Great. So I head to her house, helped her get ready, helped my sister get ready, helped my little cousin (an unexpected guest since he's 4 but he proves his usefulness later on) get ready and we were off. At 10:40. To my DB appointment which was at 11:00 and 45 minutes away from where we live. I was (Silently) panicking. Luckily we were only 10 or so minutes late. I rush in to a busy store, waited for my associate to meet me. Well the first lady I met was ecstatic to meet me. VERY ecstatic. The kind of lady who may mean well, but is just wayyy too excited for me to feel comfortable around. When I told her I had a pinterest list of all the dresses I loved and style #s at DB, I thought she was going to have a heart attack. "Yay I love Pinterest too! Pinterest sisters!" Oh gosh. Unfortunately (Luckily) she had another bride who needed her help and couldn't help me out. She handed me over to another associate Cindy, in such a way that Cindy asked if the other associate and I knew each other. "Nope" When I looked for my beautiful well charted Pinterest list I was saddened to see that in this morning's rush I had left it in my car. We had all taken my mom's car. Oh well. Cindy was absolutely amazing. She was polite but not fake, listened to everything I wanted, gave me that, and then gave me what she thought I may like. When I told her my budget ($1300) she told me "So basically you have the store to choose from" Yay :) Shopping without checking tags was something I had always wanted to do but had never been able to do. Cross that off my bucket list :).

Then the dress shopping began.  My mom did something unexpected. Her and my MOH became "Those" guests. The ones who run and pick out dresses that are more their styles then mine, and are usually at the price THEY think I should spend. *Sigh* Even Cindy looked a little shocked at some of the dresses they were pulling. Not at all my style. Oh well tried a few on to humor them. Then on to the next one. The dress I loved (see past post for pics) was the second to last out of what felt like a billion but was probably closer to ten that I tried on. I saw myself in the mirror and gasped. No tears, but definitely shocked. Especially when my mind started looking for flaws; in my appearance, in the dress, something; and FOUND NONE. But when I looked at my mom, just like with every other dress I had tried on, she had no reaction. When I asked her if something was wrong, she just said her back hurt. Now my mom has bad back issues so I don't think she was lying. I just wish she would've got a little more excited. Dang TLC for making me believe mothers should cry when they see the dress! She did say that she liked this dress more than the other ones, so I took that as a sign. When i asked Cindy how much was the dress, ( neither of us had been price checking lol) it ended up being $748 or so give or take on sale. Wayyyy below budget. After asking for the time, (Neither of us had been checking that either. Whoops!) I decided I wanted to try on one more form fitting dress drama dress and then I knew I would be done. We were ten minutes OVER my appt. end time, but my dutiful associate ran off to find one last dress. With the final dress, in which I looked about 3 months prego (That's hot) I was done. Off to lunch we went :). At promptly 2:30 we were at Alfred's. The place was beautiful huge full of dresses my size. The desk lady told me someone would be right with us. We gazed through the plus size range of dresses dreamily and picked out ones we loved... then we waited. And waited. And looked at BM dresses and waited again. At promptly 3:10 ish we were finally matched with a consultant, a little 5 foot girl who asked me what I was looking for and for my price. Now at this point in the story I would like to give myself a pat in the back. I did not snap or yell or complain about how long it took or when I was holding most of the dresses or even when they did not have undergarments for me to try on with my dresses like DB did. I simply smiled, showed her the ones I liked and was off. The girl had not been consulting for very long. That much was obvious. She took forever to get me in a dress, and honestly I could've probably tried on dresses quicker without her. At DB they managed to get me into size 12 dresses with the magic of clips and an awesome associate. At Alfred's they couldn't manage to get me into a size 16. Hmm. Finally I found one I liked and almost compared to the one. The style was very similar and all in all it was a pretty dress. But it was a hundred dollars more than the other dress, and was VERY plain. For some reason though I kept mulling over this dress that was obviously not me. It fit me well, and the tulle was pretty. But it wasn't me! But it looks great! But I like bling! I was fighting with myself. Looking back on it, I think I had just always imagined myself to be an Alfred's bride, that being a DB bride seemed traitorish. Oh well. One more dress, ( my mom's pick) and we were done. Now my mom had told me in the car that she always imagined me in something more traditional. I however always imagined me in something different. I'm not traditional why should I look it? So when my mom picked out what I call the Belle dress for me to try on I should've seen this coming. It was pretty, the top almost looked like the top of the dress I loved at DB but the bottom had pickups. I HATE pickups. Some people can pull them off I can't. They remind me of a comforter, as in the blanket you put on your bed. My mom loved that dress. I hated it. Hate hate hate hate hate. I couldn't get over the pickups. I felt so sad because I wanted my mom and I to love the same dress and I couldn't ever love this dress. Even though my mom told me she loved this and the DB dress equally, I knew it was a lie. But I also knew I couldn't get it if I hated it. So back to DB we went to try on the dress one more time. This time my dad was there. HE actually cried when he saw it. I knew I had made the right choice and I bought it.

What I learned from this experiences were two things :
A. To go with your gut. I knew when I had it on, I just was afraid to committ.

B. I look great in wedding dresses lol. Most of the dresses I tried on looked good on me, just not perfect. If I had decided to settle before trying on dresses I would've had a dress in ten minutes. The important thing is never to settle, and to always go after what you love. :D

WOW WHAT HAPPENED TO THE BLOG!!!!

Haha If you can't tell or this is your first time coming here, I'd like to let you know we've went through a complete renovation... That's right SJE has been revamped :) I just felt like it needed a more "Original" blog look now that my little blog is slowly but surely blossoming :) So I hope ya'll like it!!!!!!!!!

Wedding : I bought my dress!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So I have bought the dress of my dreams. Or really the dress of my unexpected dreams.... It is not at ALL what I expected to wear. I could've sworn I was going to pick a form fitting dress with lots of Va Va VOOM! Instead, I picked a beautiful "Cinderella" type of dress :) 


If you want to see pics, I have them posted here :http://boards.weddingbee.com/topic/i-found-my-dress-and-it-was-soo-not-what-i-expected


My Fiance said if he saw the dress he wouldn't marry me ( He's half joking... I think lol) He's really superstitious about it. So I figured since my blog is easier to find then a post on a wedding website, I'm not going to post pics of it on here. If he sees them now, that's totally his fault :D


Let me know what you think!!!!! I'm so happy with it. It's just so sparkly. and I will be making the bottom part a bit more fuller to emphasize the tulle, by wearing a super poufy slip :) 

Tattoos and Weddings

     Since this blog isn't very old at all, you may not know that I have two tattoos.          

This lovely cross with wings that goes around my right ankle

(It's a little swollen since this pic was taken right after I got it done) 

&

This beautiful shoulder tattoo on my left shoulder.

Now all of my tattoos were thought out wellll in advance (in fact my ankle tattoo had been planned for FOUR years before I finally got it.) They are both done by professionals with years of experience under their belts and who obviously knew what they were doing. I am very proud of my tattoos and I believe they are beautiful :). For the most part, I don't hear much about them from other people and in fact most people don't notice them at all! With the exception of one thing.

Apparently during my wedding I am supposed to hide my tattoos (particularly my shoulder tattoo which would be most likely the most noticeable), and cast them away with wedding dresses with sleeves, or tattoo cover-up. This thought bewilders me. My tattoos are a part of me; why would I want them covered on one of the most important days of my life?!? I often am asked what am I going to do if I decide to wear a strapless wedding gown. Umm I'll wear it?? I have no shame with showing off my tattoos; they are in no way offensive; and they represent part of my personality and who I am.   

What do you think?

 Is there any sense  in covering up your tattoos for your wedding/ a special event ?

(With the exception of job interviews. That I do understand)

 Let me know what you think!

   
   
         

Please forgive me!!!

My laptop is in the shop so I may be a horrible blogger this week... I will try my hardest not to let this overcome my ability to blog. Tommorow's mission??? "Borrow" my fiance's computer. Without him ever finding out. Bahaha I can't wait!!! : p

Wedding Location Searches

Ok So Me and Mr. Fiance have FINALLY agreed on one place we both would love to have our wedding at. This is quite a feat since he would rather us rush to the courthouse and just get it done with, while I am the big beautiful been wedding planning since I was 5 type of girl. The place looks to be beautiful. Here are some pics ( I do NOT own any Copyrights to these)

Pictures belong to http://www.thehilliardmansion.com/weddings.htm or at least that's where I pulled them from 

It has an outdoor place for the ceremony and an indoor place for a reception. We have an appointment to go visit it next Saturday, near sunset when the wedding will be. As long as it's as pretty as the pictures make it appear to be, this may be it!!!!!!! I sure hope so :)

Good Golly I'm excited!!!!!!!

E Pics Part 2

Here are the formal E pics :) The dress is from Torrid, and the tights are from Hot Topic. 

Graffiti Train :)

And some more casual ones....

                       
                                       I'm a dork and he's a nerd :)

   Random van our photographer spotted and wanted us to take pics in front of lol

I love love love my curves in this pic

I love this in black and white more then color :) 

This one really catches my personality the best

Once again, Julie Paisley Photography is the best. 

I'm so very happy with my pictures <3

Let's Be Honest This Is My First REAL OOTD

Oh Boy Oh Boy! Thanks to my lack of embarrassment and an awesome work friend I got a real full picture of my Friday work outfit  :) Complete with the awkward stares from my co-workers, it was a defining moment at my job for sure. Lol. 


This beautiful dress is the exact one I mentioned ordering a few posts back off of Eshakti. It is indeed very purple. But purple is my favorite color so I don't care :)

I don't know why I look so nervous... 

Probably since this was taken in the break room at lunchtime,

So there was quite an audience.

Now this is more me lol. 

Shoes: Rack Room Shoes

I think every girl needs a nude pair of heels <3

Ballerina Necklace: Claire's

Necklace: Gifted with Charms Gifted

As a formal ballerina, I love all things dance :) Especially Accessories

Flower headband: Icing

I wanted you to see the pleats. They really do make the dress!

Plus it has pockets!!!!!!!!!!!! I'm really happy with this dress

What do you think?

On a side note: More E pics either later tonight or tomorrow... 

The CD came in AS I was typing this!!!!!!

Yay :)

E Pics Part 1

               With 1 yr and a half left to plan, wedding plans have been abrewin in my mind. I am not a simple girl and this is not a simple wedding. :) I love the planning but trying to find a location is so frustrating!!!!! This weekend me and my fiance looked at places online to get a general idea. Emailing places often ends up with me fighting for them to tell me the price BEFORE I visit not after!!! THIS STUFF IS EXPENSIVE. Thank goodness my amazing parents are covering most if not all of the wedding. I love them :). Here's one of my engagement pics courtesy of Julie Paisley Photography who is Ahmazing. 


This is my casual outfit:



Jacket: Old Navy
Shirt: Forever 21 +
Cage and bird necklace: Claire's
Pearl Necklace: Gifted


Formal outfit pics soon!

New Years and My Resolutions

           As we all know, a New Year is quickly approaching.... Today I just want to blog specifically on New Year Resolutions. 


           I never keep mine but I still think it's fun to try :)
  
     1. Lose weight. As always . But I don't really put too much effort in this since I'm really quite comfortable with my weight.


     2. Save more money. I have a shopping addiction lol so this is always very difficult to me. This year I will try though.


     3. Enjoy life more. Sometimes It's easy to get caught up in the ins and outs of working and living and trying to succeed. It's always a good thing to remember to just breathe sometimes :)


                   So what are some of your resolutions??

Who Am I and Why Do I Have a Blog?

Why Hello World!


           My name is Jenny Emm. I live in a very small town in very sunny Florida. I love shopping, music, long walks on the beach and you for reading this :) I have created this blog in order to show off some hits (and misses) that my love of fashion may take. I would love your feedback as I embark on this terrifying mission.


        About me:
        
        1. I am a confessed shopaholic. And I love it :)
        2. I'm a plus size shopper; specifically between the sizes of 18 through 22 ( although I can sometimes wear a size large in women's tops)
        3. I am engaged to an awesome guy. I own an evil gerbil. He owns a sweet rat. It's a pretty great family.
        4. I am 19 years soon to be 20 years young.
        5. I work at an Insurance company in the Accounting department. Pretty impressive for a 19 year old huh? :)


Now enough about me, Tell me about you! What's one thing you love about yourself??